Looking Up

Since the news of my cousin's passing, it's been a roller coaster of emotions and events around here. The service was last Thursday and it was really beautiful. His daughter sang a song (I still don't know how. I was a sobbing mess, she did great.) and I visited with family from out of town who I hadn't seen in quite awhile. Shell stayed home with the kids, so I went with my parents. We helped transport food & flowers back to the house and then stayed there visiting until I had to get home so Shell could leave for work. It was really hard to go through all the emotions of the day without her, and since I walked in as she walked out I really missed her that night. Last Sunday we had lunch at White Fence Farm with my parents, my grandma, my mom's cousin & her husband and the wife and kids of my cousin who passed. It was a really nice afternoon, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't glad to be home that evening with my wife cuddling and watching movies. The fear that something could happen to her is with me constantly now, and I find myself struggling at times to get past that and function normally. I guess it's good that I'm not taking her for granted, but I found myself with tears in my eyes this morning when I left for work because we had argued and I couldn't stop thinking that if something happened to her while I was gone, it would be the last time I had with her. Couple that with the fact I was just irritated by what we were arguing about and I couldn't decide if I was happy or sad to be leaving! Oh, and I'm going to start my period soon so I'd better hold on tight because this could be a bumpy ride!
We are going to see Rent tonight and I am beside myself with excitement. I feel like I've been waiting to see this forever and watching the movie just intensified that. Plus, the actors who played Roger and Mark in the movie and original stage production are in this tour as well. And our seats are in the THIRD ROW! Oh, I can't WAIT to get off work so I can go home and shower, drop the kids off with my parents and head to the theater.
And speaking of tickets, Shell surprised me with tickets to see the 1964: The Tribute band play at Red Rocks in August. I went with my dad 2 years ago and last year we took my boy and we had such a great time. So we're going again, the three of us with the shared love for The Beatles.
This week at work has been a challenge. We had Internet problems Monday through Thursday, so today is the first day I've been able to access my work for a full day. I am so behind on entry, it's not pretty. I've considered coming in this weekend to get more caught up. I'm still thinking about it.
The only other news is that the kids saw the dentist this week for their routine cleanings & exams and my boy has his first cavity. So he'll go back in 2 weeks to get that filled and have his last remaining baby tooth pulled.
Oh, one more thing. We got the kids last report cards in the mail this week and they both had straight A's! And they will be in honors classes next year, so middle school, here we come!